One way, this horrible experience changed me in a lot of ways. I have become more compassionate, I meditate which has been the biggest positive change in my life. My interest in human psychology has grown few folds. I am not scared to question human beliefs, religious and spiritual traditions. It has been quite a journey so far.
But it has also been very very difficult to control the sudden urge to cry or feel bad for myself.
I came across this letter that someone like me struggling with infertility wrote to her family and friends. It exactly portrays the whirls of emotions that went through me in the last two years. I may not be feeling the same way right now, but it does give a sense of what people like me wanting for a child go through.